waves

so i study grief. literally my masters degree is counseling with a focus on bereavement (grief) i am excellent in a crisis. i am incredible at comforting others that are grieving. except when it's myself. in case you don't know, the five stages of grief, as defined by Elizabeth Kubler-Ross, are denial anger bargaining depression … Continue reading waves

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starting over

so i've been thinking about what happens now. i thought that my life was already all planned out, i thought i was going to marry the man that has just turned my life upside down, i thought a lot of things. but now all of those things that i thought to be true are not. … Continue reading starting over

tape and glue

If you follow my blog you know that in the last few weeks my entire life changed in what seemed to me like overnight. I wrote about how heartbroken and devastated I was, and I think in that time my depression hit an all time low. For nearly two weeks, I didn't eat or sleep, … Continue reading tape and glue

Living with a broken heart

i dont even know if thats an appropriate title. I certainly dont feel like im living. My entire world has been ripped from beneath my feet and the person that loved me most in this world did the ripping. I get up and get dressed and go to work but im not myself. Im some … Continue reading Living with a broken heart

Drowning

I feel like I'm drowning. The slowest drowning ever. I'm alone. I'm terrified, and I'm heartbroken. This is unknown territory. I have been with the other half of my heart for literally my entire adult life. And just like that I'm alone. Sometimes I feel numb, sometimes it physically hurts. I've never been here before. … Continue reading Drowning

heartbreak and a thousand candles

Facebook is great. I love using it to connect, to express myself, and to see what everyone is up to. But every year around this time, i get these "on this day" memories on facebook. Usually it's a pretty neat feature, except for this one week. Most of the time it sucks and reopens wounds, … Continue reading heartbreak and a thousand candles

the humor in the dark and twisty

depression, anxiety, grief, bad days, sad days, dark thoughts, dark times-some of us have many more of these than others. maybe it has something to do with it, maybe it doesn't. i have a dark sense of humor. Coping mechanism maybe? Who knows. Laughing releases endorphins so it can't be that bad. 🤷🏻‍♀️ *obviously, these … Continue reading the humor in the dark and twisty